Yuri "Yurippe" Nakamura (
tenminutes) wrote2012-02-08 01:53 am
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RL with Ange
[ As soon as Ange had been able to get a worldhop, Yuri had prepared for her. Her discussion with Battler... hadn't really started or ended well, so she was definitely more down than she should've been for Ange coming over, but she wasn't going to bring that up if she could avoid it. Somehow she had her doubts that Ange was just going to let it go, but..
She would still try to smile. That was what made someone human, right? The ability to keep smiling, even after tons of bad things had happened. Yuri wasn't going to let it get to her. Not if she could help it. Ange just got back from the dead and was, somehow, alive. She didn't need to deal with Yuri's problems on top of that.
Of course, the waiting game was another thing that involved gratuitous interest in her laptop. Tetris was, after all, the most fun one could have without internet access (beside the community, of course) while looking like they were actually working on something intense. ]
She would still try to smile. That was what made someone human, right? The ability to keep smiling, even after tons of bad things had happened. Yuri wasn't going to let it get to her. Not if she could help it. Ange just got back from the dead and was, somehow, alive. She didn't need to deal with Yuri's problems on top of that.
Of course, the waiting game was another thing that involved gratuitous interest in her laptop. Tetris was, after all, the most fun one could have without internet access (beside the community, of course) while looking like they were actually working on something intense. ]
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Or that's just totally insane but it's the best idea I could come up with.
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... Hey, Yuri. I don't think Battler onii-chan knows, or.. at least, I'm not sure, but.. in a way, I'm nothing more than some sort of VR simulation, really. I'm the possibility of what 'Ange' would be like if she grew up all alone, nothing more than that. If Battler wins the game, he'll go home to the six year old Ange and there will be no use for me, so I'll probably just disappear.
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You're not a VR simulation. You exist, completely. [ She's already got what makes a person made out okay? ]
Like that Battler from the future that I talked to a while ago. He's not Battler, he's a different person because he'll have gone through different things. That Battler hadn't even spoken to me since.. the third game I think? Something like that. So just by being around me and the community, things are different. The Battler here will never have those conversations with me.
[ Which is good, those were a little embarrassing. ]
It doesn't mean that that guy wasn't real, it just means he's a different person than Battler. It's the same reason that even if I could give up my memories, I would never do so willingly just to be happier. You're not a possibility, you're an actuality. You just exist in a different actuality than Battler does, because you want to save the Ange in Battler's actuality from going through the same thing you did.
Trust me, the community pulled some shit where another me was brought here for a while and Battler used some of his r-- anyway, Battler couldn't prove that what I was experiencing wasn't real. It was just another version of me, but not me. So it's entirely possible. You exist no matter what, and if you feel like you're going to disappear then you can come stay with me. I'm pretty good at fighting disappearing.
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No, I.. definitely don't exist completely the way other people do. Or rather, I do exist, but it's just as a piece on the gameboard. That gameboard is my 'actuality', so when the game is ended and the gameboard disappears, the same will happen to me.
I am just a piece, and as a piece it's my role to disappear once the game itself is over and disappears too, that's what they told me. This is a game I can't lose, and yet even if I win, or help Battler onii-chan win, I won't be rewarded. Not this me. I'm a piece brought in to end this game, yet if I end it I'll end myself too.. I still remember the day that witch came to me and told me.. "Your existence is a contradiction. Your reason for existing is to bury yourself in the darkness and despair."
[ She glances sideways at Yuri, on her face a somewhat bitterly ironic smile. ]
So I'm pretty sure I'll end up needing to stay with you then, huh..?
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...Anyway, truth is pretty subjective if someone else can tell you your reason for existing. Especially since it can change. It already has right? Since you gained access to the community, you've got other reasons to keep living.
[ Yuri reaches over and puts her hand on Ange's head. Are you ready for this? She ruffles her hair. YES RUFFLES HER HAIR. Enjoy your messed up hair. ] You can always come here if you still need to.
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At least make sure to keep an extra uniform for me around, then, it might be more likely that I'll need it than you think.
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But okay, after that joke she does sober up again slightly. ]
Fine, I guess I'll just have to try and do my best to keep existing.
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I want to keep on living. I don't want to die just yet, not while I can be with Battler onii-chan and you and everyone else. If I was alone again, it'd be a different case, but..
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Next you're going to say I could go around trying to grab girls' boobs too now..
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You're starting to suspect me already.
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[ Lmao this joking is just so silly.. ]
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Don't they say all girls who go to girls only schools eventually turn out like that?
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[ since Yuri and Ange are secret lesbians-- okay no.. ]
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[ that's better than Ange, either way, she's just.. aromantic unless prompted heavily.. ]
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