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I'm starting to really hate this thing.

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Are you still hanging out because of the virus or am I getting the normal even-bigger-idiot right now?

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[wishingpink.livejournal.com]

Yuri.

[She shakes her head. This place was such a double edged sword sometimes.]

Can't be? Honey, it showed what I already know you are. Yes it was really painful and if I knew who did there'd be no rule that can stop me from showing a them a piece of my mind! It showed you're a caring person, to caring if that's possible...and I'm glad I got to see and remember all those nice time with you as my god kid.

Your friends here can call it 'fake' all they want, but it wasn't. Don't think that, okay?

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[tenminutes]

[ Yuri takes a deep breath, putting one hand up to her face momentarily. She knows she can get really unstable sometimes and she's trying to stop that so she can be a good leader and not have people worry about her as much. ]

It might not have been fake for that person... but that person wasn't me. That person is what I could've been. Whether that person is real or not, those memories aren't mine and those things that made me into the person I was then never happened.

I have to remain here with my memories of my life and death because every single one of those made me who I am, and no matter how painful it is, I can't give that up. If I give that up, then it's only an insult to them.

It may have been real while it happened, but it wasn't my life that I was living then, Wanda.

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[wishingpink.livejournal.com]

Those memories are part of you now and they're effecting you. They might even give you something to go with in the future.

That sounds pretty close to real to me.

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[tenminutes]

Wanda, I can't have a future like that. After I defeat God, I'll probably stop existing. I can't even let myself be happy now because if I do, I might disappear before I'm able to do anything for them.

All I have is my past.

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[wishingpink.livejournal.com]

Now that's not entirely true. You can't stop existing, no matter what happens. Not completely.

You have your past and for a moment, you got to be happy without worrying. Just remember that. And you don't have to remember it happily...just be...nostalgic. It's not the same thing.